Saturday, 14 April 2018

Life Happens - Back To The Old Me

The last month of the first quarter of 2018 is coming to an end and I'm sure many of us are losing our heads at how fast the year is moving. I can't believe it (I can but I can't, ya zimmi?), every time I plan my months out and set goals, I'm always shocked at how little time there is to do everything.

This post is mainly update on my life and what I've been up to the past couple of months.

If you follow me on Instagram (@jez_slyn), I said I'd talk about how overcame a recent mental and physical breakdown. I mentioned that I'd had viral infection which had triggered a Lupus flare (I had symptoms of joint pain, nausea, migraine, blurred vision, anxiety and clinical depression), resulting in me deciding to leave my job and focus on mentally and physically getting better.
I am someone that doesn't like to complain, I just get on with it which could be perceived as me not really being unwell. This is something I know I need to work on, making people understand that actually, I'm not feeling too good and I'm going to hibernate.
When you're working for someone, hibernating is not really an option and that's when it can take a toll on your body.

This is exactly what happened to me.

Back in August 2017, I was at my mental and physical best, I had a great appetite, I was at a healthy weight (58kg), going to the gym, my skin was healing (Lupus shenanigans) and overall I felt great. I had fully recovered from the stress of uni. At this point, a job seemed okay for me to embark on, something light but mentally challenging (I love a challenge!)
For the past 6-7months, I'd been working back to back, no days off (even when I felt like absolute shite). Many a time, I felt guilty taking a day off because of illness which is why I didn't or I felt I would perk up during the day, many times I didn't but I pushed through. I ignored the people closest to me telling me to rest, take a break.
Big, big mistake.
I caught a viral infection and I couldn't fight it off, I take steroids for Lupus and they supress the immune system so I struggled to fight off the infection along with being too exhausted to. My temperature was through the roof, I couldn't talk or come out from under the covers without my head pounding. I hadn't felt this unwell since uni and it started to affect my mental state. I was anxious about telling work that I was unfit to work, guilt was kicking in for taking too many days off, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I wasn't eating anything, I felt stressed out and helpless. This went on for nearly 2 weeks before I felt that I needed to do something, doctors had given me the help, my family had looked after me and given me advice and now it was all on me to sort myself out.

How I overcame, yet another flare.


For me, this is the only thing that helps me overcome a flare, eliminating everything, I mean everythingggggg, that could be causing stress, anxiety or general illness.

I find it hard to do but it has to be done otherwise, I don't get better.

After speaking to my family, handing in my notice at work was essential and I couldn't feel bad about it. It was a difficult decision but again, it was a must, it was affecting my mental and physical state way too much to ignore and continue. I wasn't getting proper breaks and lunch at work and there was no point going back into a situation that would trigger another flare, it was a risk not worth taking.

Another thing that had to be eliminated was eating foods or meals that made me feel unhappy or unsatisfied, is a better word to describe the feeling. I can be a very picky eater and eating foods that I wasn't excited to eat or eating repeat meals can set off a string of having no appetite. When I have no appetite, I do not eat, I can go hours without eating and not feeling hungry. This then triggers rapid weight loss.

Lastly, workload. Whether it was personal workload or 'work' workload, reducing the amount of things I needed to commit to or complete was very important and most certainly essential in recovering.


As cliché as this may sound, going to the gym or exercising in general, helps me a lot. People always advice that you exercise to feel better and as much as you don't want to believe it because it sounds like too much effort, it definitely improves your physical and mental state.
When I felt my body could be pushed, I'd go to the gym, do a light work, foam roll (very important! Read my post on why) and stretch. Doing this at least 2-3 times a week built up my motivation and 'appetite' to go to the gym. Going to the gym is therapy for me, it clears my head, builds my confidence and gives me a boost, overall.

Eating and appetite. Two detrimental things. Building my appetite was very important, I lose it very easily and I always try my best to maintain it. First things first, I went FOOD SHOPPING, I bought everythinggggg I felt like, bread, ritz crackers, soft cheese, grapes (I lurveee grapes), biscuits, crumpets, everything I was craving basically. This shop itself, made me WANT to cook and eat. I planned my meals and snacks for the week and before you know it, I was enjoying eating again.
My eating habits go hand in hand with exercising, going to the gym makes me very hungry so going was helping build my appetite, which I knew it would.

So that's my journey of the past 6months or so, I'm still in the recovery period, trying to gain back my body weight, keeping up with gym, controlling my stress levels etc.
It's not been easy but getting back to a state of healthy is so important to me.
I'm slowly introducing things the I love doing back into my routine (blogging included!) and I'm looking forward to a healthier, happier me!

Have you been in a rut recently, or not yourself? What did you do to get yourself back on track?
I'd love to hear your journeys!

Take care, Jess x

Monday, 1 January 2018


Happy New Year!

Another year has flown by (2017 went by ridiculously quick!) and all I can say is I hope you have a plan because before you know it, we’ll be saying the same thing, 365 days from now.

I winged 2017, I didn’t really set strict goals at the start, I knew what I wanted to achieve as the year went by and I’m proud to say I accomplished the goals I subconsciously set for myself.

A few highlights, passing my driving test first time in February 2017, a great way of starting the year. Driving was something I really wanted to do in 2017 and I was determined to be a driver throughout 2017. Which leads me to my next accomplishment, I bought my first car (will do a post later on!), in May 2017, it was definitely a huge, huge achievement and I’m very proud and grateful.

Education wise, I finished my degree, to say it was hard is an understatement but I did it. I did it!

 I graduated from the University of East London with a Bachelor of Arts (Honours) in Fashion Design. I finished uni back in Spring 2017 but our uni doesn’t have a graduation until November so it’s still quite fresh to me. I still look at my graduation pictures (nearly every other day, I admit I’m obsessed!) and smile because it’s such a big thing for me and my family. Being the eldest, I’ve pathed the way for my younger siblings and shown them that it can be done no matter what obstacles are thrown at you.
2017 was a stepping stone for me, I overcame health struggles and I’m learning how to manage my lupus. I got 2 new jobs in the same company and I’ve started the behind the scenes of my business launching soon.

I’m really looking forward to 2018, I’ve set some crazy goals for myself but looking at what I accomplished in the past year, I know I can smash these goals with flying colours. It onwards and upwards from here on out.
I hope everyone has set goals and tasks for themselves, even if you slack along the way, don’t beat yourself up, just overcome the obstacles and keep pushing.

Happy 2018 and have a wonderful and prosperous year!

Take care, Jesslyn x

Thursday, 26 October 2017

Bye Acrylics

Yes, you read the title correctly!

I am no longer an acrylic nail veteran, au naturale is the way I've been living this past month or so.
Now, this change wasn't by choice, when you have to go out into the real world and have to get a job, one of the biggest requirements is to have natural or short nails.
In my case, natural nails was a must because I needed to match the ethic of the brand.

I've been having major withdrawal symptoms, I've just started getting used to it. I work in the beauty industry at the moment so I get to have my nails done regularly which has softened the blow a little.
I personally feel I needed this transition to natural, I've had acrylics nails on religiously for 5 years and I'm glad I've had this opportunity to be able to take a break and appreciate my natural-ness.

I'm still sticking to doing my favourite colour. . . nude.
My nails are quite damaged from the acrylics so I've been wearing lighter colours and using a cuticle oil to help repair them. My nails grow very fast and I'm already seeing the new growth looking so healthy. I'll do some before and afters later on in the year and what I've done to help repair them as I know having healthy nails is something that we love to have.

So that's me for now, au naturale (until further notice!)

Take care, Jess!

Saturday, 21 October 2017

Time for Dr Martens

It's never too early (in my eyes) to whip out your Winter boots, I'm not a fan of being cold, my feet and head must be warm at all times so it's no surprise that I'm already sporting my Dr Martens. My manager was shocked (and quite amused) to see me wearing my UGGs to work one September morning.
If my feet are warm then I'm a happy girl!

I love my docs, they're perfect, they look good but also feel good. They can feel heavy when you first start wearing them but you eventually get used to them. I drove to work in them for the first time last week and I found my self pressing the pedals quite firmly not realising how heavy they were. After a couple drives, I got used to the pressure I'm supposed to apply. I'm quite a confident driver so it didn't put me off wearing them to drive, plus my feet were extra cosy so win-win.

These are my go-to at the moment, what are your go-to A/W shoes? Are you like me and are whipping out the heavy duty boots or are you waiting a bit for 'real Winter'?

Dr Martens Serena 8 Eye II Boot

Take care, Jess x

Monday, 16 October 2017

Beverly Hills Formula Professional White*

*This post contains gifted items by Beverly Hills Formula, all views/opinions/experiences expressed within the post are all my own.

I am that person that has no faith in teeth whitening products, mainly because of fake advertisement by celebs and I don't feel brands take into consideration how long it will take to see a difference and it's usually not the '2 week transformation' they're promising on the label.

I was sent a toothpaste and mouthwash by Beverly Hills Formula to test out and this is my honest experience with it.

The products claims to eliminate bacteria causing bad breath, neutralise remaining odours and remove surface and deep stains without harming the enamel.
It advises to brush twice daily and to use the mouthwash after brushing.

So nothing too crazy promised on the packet which to me gives me some hope in the thinking the product will work. They haven't promised ice white teeth in 7 days, which companies usually do.

I was using it on and off for a month when I first received it, I wanted to compare the feel of it between my normal toothpaste so alternated between the two daily. I noticed that the BHF toothpaste made my teeth feel very, very smooth after use, almost 'pearly' like as opposed to my normal toothpaste that gave me just the fresh and clean feel.

After a month of on and off use, I started using it twice daily to see if I could see a difference in whiteness, to cut long story short, my teeth look brighter and slightly whiter but I didn't see a huge difference in the 2 months of using it.
I feel that long term use will be effective, I'm a huge tea drinker so it does stain my teeth and I have noticed my teeth to be so much brighter after use.

It doesn't promise white teeth and I was expecting to have white teeth after using it, I understood from the product that I'd have brighter teeth and a fresher mouth which I feel this product has done for me.
It's so easy for brands to mislead consumers and I am impressed that BHF hasn't tried deceive consumers when it's so easy to do so.
I've finished the mouthwash but I have a little bit of the toothpaste left, I'd definitely purchase it and make it 'my' toothpaste. I'll do an update maybe 6 months from now so you guys can see a before and after after a long period of use.
For now, I'm really pleased with the results and I'd say give it a try especially if you're someone that drinks a lot of coffee, tea or coloured drinks.

Take care, Jess x

Can be purchased at Superdrug.

Sunday, 20 August 2017

I CUT MY HAIR (for real this time)

If you follow me on Instagram or Snapchat, you'd know I've taken two trips to the barbers and both times, I was so nervous, I could shit myself.
It felt so weird to be someone that has had long hair to now having a pair of clippers swept across your head. It's been the strangest change, not only for me but for my parents too who never thought they'd see their daughter in a barbers, let alone sitting in the chair.
As a Nigerian, my parents (dad more so) see hair as a sign of beauty and also being heavily invested in religion, hair is a sign of strength and cutting it, represents you weakening yourself.
That's the "belief".

However, I see it as switching up the do and slaying. Hair is just hair and it will grow back.
I've loved having my hair so short, it's been so easy to look after and do in the morning, well there's not much to do.
I do want to dye it, in the near future but not 100% on what colour yet so I've stuck to black for the time being.
My hair is naturally curly so I've been wearing it like so, I haven't attempted finger waves yet which I will, I just have to have the patience to do it. When I do, I'll defnitely show you guys.

The products I'm using haven't changed much but I'll do updated hair routine in my next hair related post.

I've been enjoying watching natural hair journeys so it's been fun starting my own journey. It's sort of a journey to nowhere because my aim isn't really to grow it, more so to have healthy hair until I feel I want to grow it long again.

What do you guys think of my new cut? I'm scared to go different in terms of shaving styles but I will try find some inspiration before I sit in the barbers' chair again and ask for something snazzy.

Have any of you gone and got a drastic cut recently? Let me know how you're loving it!

Take care, Jesslyn x
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